Tuesday, October 20, 2009


My heart is so broken. I don't feel like I will ever know "normal" again. I'm sure that people think we have all recovered by now, but I haven't. I look forward to and dread the holidays. I found out I was preganant with Sage on Thanksgiving day. I have always loved that holiday. I love cooking for my family, I love that it celebrates all the wonderful blessings we have in our lives and now it is a reminder of what I have lost.


  1. Laura, thank you for visiting For Your Tears. I am so sorry you lost your son. My heart is full of sadness for you. I would love to send you a handkerchief. Send me your full name and address: dpucci9972@gmail.com

    Thank you for taking my button. Take care and God Bless.

  2. So sorry for your loss of you sweet son. Our angel dates are very close, I lost my girls on March 6, 2009. Keep writing it is such good therapy and keeps you from bottling your emotions up. Hugs, Nan

  3. So sorry for your loss. My son Wyatt died 2 minutes after birth on June 1, 2009. We received a fatal diagnosis but hoped we would get to meet him alive... and we did :)

    This blog will bring you in contact with so many wonderful people. The women I've met through my blog have been my greatest support besides my husband. Just write how you feel and you'll be surprised how welcomely your thoughts are accepted.

    Let me know if I can do anything for you.

    Danielle (Wyatt's mommy)

  4. Our son, Alexander, was born just prior to Thanksgiving and last year, the holidays were really tough, especially because we lost his twin siblings in early 2008. I know this year, they will be too. We just try to pray and take it one day at a time.
    Thinking of you...

  5. Dear Laura,

    I am so very so sorry for the loss of your baby boy. The Holidays are always so tough.... so many reminders, so many "what should have been's".

    Sending you strength.

  6. Laura, I haven't been through too many holidays yet since losing my Carleigh. We received her fatal diagnosis at 22 1/2 wks and she was born still at 37 wks on March 28, 2009. Holidays are a wonderful time for family but it they are also huge reminders of what is missing, our sweet babies.


  7. My heart hurts with you. My Jenna Belle was born on May 5 and died in the NICU 13 days later. This is our first holiday season without her too. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find the comfort you need through this difficult time. If you have a chance, feel free to request a Hope Collage for your precious Sage at www.hopecollage.org

    Love to the sky,

  8. Oh Laura, I am so sorry for your loss.
    The holidays are so painful when you are grieving.

    Your blog is so lovely...a beautiful way to honor your baby.

  9. I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Sage. Praying God's comfort and sufficient grace for you. The holidays, especially are such a difficult time. Please let us know if there's anything we can do for you. (www.sufficientgrace.net or http://sufficientgrace-kelly.blogspot.com)

    Kelly Gerken
    Sufficient Grace Ministries

  10. I'm Misty. We lost Isaac to Anencephaly April 8th of this year. I'm here with you, on this journey. I get it. I understand....